3...2...1...GO-erm you sure?!

I was wandering into town this morning, (I say wandering, more rushing around like a headless chicken because once again unsuprisingly i thought i was late). Anyways i had my mp3 player in my ears and a song came on 'take it to the streets/yes lord' that was played a fair bit at Newday one year. I knew everytime I heard it that it was my mission, to take the gospel of christ wherever I went and I also have felt a call on my heart since i was 14 to go to the nations. I just never thought it would really be that day (always had faith and belived it would at somepoint, someday), which is funny because thats still how I feel but I am going to Uganda in 2 days, it still feels like something for the future (in the whole 'plans for when i'm grown up' box) but i am coming to realise that the future is now that my mission is in the here and now-wherever the here and now might be. At the end of the day I don't know how many days I have been blessed with, but I intend to make the most of every single one.

Back to the point i was making, the words of the song include the line 'will you take it to the ends of the Earth? Sing yes lord... followed by the chorus from the congregation (of which my voice was one) yell 'Yes Lord'
I wonder how often (as i was contemplating with my close friend Pete last night) we sing words of christian songs without really singing them, worship is surely meant to be a heart attitude and if we aren't singing the words with our hearts as well, we may as well not be singing them! As i was walking back from town (and a very lovely long chat with Maddie) the end of the song was still playing so i flicked it back to the beginning and sung the words in my heart, comitting everything I am about to do to be used for God's plans and purposes. It was quite strange because as I was walking back I passed one of the boys who used to be a part of the kidz klub Iused to help with, reminding me in some ways of the mission fields i had been a part of and how significant each one is. But here i am, a simple 19 year old with a passion in her heart to see Jesus glorified in this nation and the world, one soul sold out for God, excited that even this person can be used by him. and the day after tomorrow i'm off!!! -Eeek!

A little poem i borrowed but really like:


When I say "I'm a Christian", i'm not shouting i'm clean livin'.
i'm whispering i was lost, now i'm found and forgiven.
When i say "i'm a Christian", i dont speak of this with pride.
im confessing that i stumble and need Christ to be my guide.
When i say "i'm a Christian", i'm not trying to be strong.
i'm professing that i'm weak and need His strength to carry on.
When i say "i'm a Christian", i'm not bragging of success.
i'm admitting i have failed and need God to clean my mess.
When i say "i'm a Christian", i'm not claiming to be perfect.
my flaws are far too visible but, God believes i'm worth it.
When i say "i'm a Christian", i still feel the sting of his pain.
i have my share of heartaches so i call upon His name.
When i say "i'm a Christian", i'm not holier than thou.
i'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow.

Probably won't write again till I'm back
Much love :) xxxxxxx